Training was dead tough..
body felt totally wrong..
must be the alcohol..
binge drinking ain't good..
especially if trainings the next day..
been feeling heartburn since rowing..
gosh the feeling's terrible..
pukey kinda feeling..

i know i shouldnt be doing this..
what i've been doing..
isn't it as good as backstabbing..?
but feelings come..
i ain't sure of everything myself..
time will tell i'm sure..

God give me a sign..
any sign..

When trust becomes a burden..