The sun battered down on me today..
slightly sunburnt..
i felt good rowing today..
the water wasn't as heavy..
lesser people but easier to row..

The feelings getting worse..
everythings getting worse..
how long can i hang on..
till when..

My heart feels lyk its being torn in half..
every heartbeat hurts..

Relief only comes in tears..
tears are my painkillers..

I feel so much..
yet no words can signify..
how much you mean to me..

I want you to know..
i really love you..