Today's training was tough..
due to the climate i guess..
weather was lyk very hot and humid..
rowing was very tiring..
couldn't feel my shoulders after the row..
it started to get very painful after each movement..
couldn't even lift my arm..
i think its the shoulder joint overstrained..

Got that "i suck" feeling again..
my feelings..
my moods..
so irregular..
every little thing can hurt me..
i get worried over things beyond my control..
i find no sense or purpose doing what i've been doing..
but there's no will to change outside of my comfort zone..

Some Feelings came..
Other feelings went..
but my feelings for you never changed..