Why am i still so in love with you..? seriously.. i dont know why.. but i seem to want to care so much for you.. i just wana do something.. something.. but i'm scared.. for fear you'll find me irritating.. i really dont know which way is the way to go now.. cause it seems like doing nothing is the best thing to do.. i cant see myself holding out long.. i'll message you someday soon i guess.. when..? i dont know.. it all depends.. there were many times i could have changed bus halfway to go home directly.. but i usually take the whole trip to PR bus interchange.. just hoping and praying.. to catch a glimpse of you.. even from afar.. it'll be alright.. its been so long since i last saw you.. so very long for me.. i yearn to see you smiling back at me again.. i really do.. that dream just seems so far.. i've hit rock bottom of my life ever since you left.. so hard i couldnt stand up again...

The part can never be well unless the whole is well...

someone told me this

love has no time, season or reason. you cant ask it to stay but just be glad and thankful for one moment it was yours, meant to last forever. give her time. yourself too. i'm sure someday somehow, if its meant to be like what you feel it should, the flame can be rekindled..

true.. but what should i do..? pratically nothing..?