Beginning to hate Tuesdays..
start at 10am end at 5pm..
got training at 6pm till 9pm..
caught a few winks here and there..
super long day..
so damn tired..

Time..
bout how slow time passes sometimes..
but yet you ask for more time when needed..

Sometimes i just feel i'm such a failure...
its just me..
can't help it..

Anything for you..

Lessons ended at 1pm..
headed down to century..
to catch Dead or Alive..
storyline kinda crap..
but the guys are not complaining..
den back to TP for PST..

wished you'd tell me..

No idea what's going on..

I'm losing connection..
we need to reconnect..

Sometimes its not either of our faults..
but its how we solve it..

-Loved-

Race coming up in 2 weeks exactly..
the hype and motivation is going up..
we're doing well, clocking in pretty good times ..
but there's still room for improvement..
cmon guys lets finish this..

Training has been very good in fact..
been resting well over the weekends..
i feel so much better..
another week to look ahead to..
i'll get through it..

The lesser you bother..
the lesser you need to know..
letting things go..
and not thinking bout it..
there's not much to think anyway..
believe my feelings are right..
thats all that matters right now..

We'll work things out, we'll make things work..

School barely started..
and i feel so exhausted..
don't know what's with me..
just physically & mentally drained..
worn out kinda..
i feel so lethargic..
maybe been stayin up late too much..
tink its taking a toll on me..
will take effort to sleep earlier..
my body just needs time to adjust i hope..

Looking at everyone else's schedule..
worse then mine no doubt..
i mean i'm very satisfied with mine..
i don't know whats the exact problem..
or is it a mixture of problems?
i tink its the latter..
guess its all those itsy-bitsy things..
that are bothering me again..

Yes i'll get through this..
nothing's gonna stop me..
from feeling fine again..
anything for you..

Everything happens for a reason..

Everything you do matter..
every little thing..

-telepathy-

My timetable's pretty slack..
end at 1pm for lyk 3 days..
but somehow i stl can't really find time..
to catch up with people..
and to meet up with you..

Yearning for the simple life..
but everythings not so simple..
just wana sit back relax..
watch people go by..
time to do whatever i want..

Lyk i said before..
this is a trying time for me..
thing's ain't exactly workin out..
tryna schedule everything..
tryna work everything out..
when things clashes..
and you can't do anything bout it..
its demoralising..
i'm just too tired to plan anything..
wad if things clash again..

I'm tired..

I hope this is just a passing phase of life..
and things will get better..

i <3 you baby..

Getting used to intensive training..
fitness and endurance getting better..
race in 2 weeks..
push it!

Met up with baby today..
just looked around PS..
with her friends and all..
headed to mind cafe..
played for lyk 2 hours..
games allow people to know each other faster..
yup i had fun..
especially with her around..

One in a million..

First day of school..
great to see the rest of the guys..
pretty much nothing to do today..
lessons ended at 1pm..
but had CDS at 5pm..
headed down to TM to catch Death Note..
must sae its not bad..
back to school for PST..
dismissed after 30mins..
usual routine to walk to interchange..

More intensive training tomorrow..
den i'll head down to town..

Balancing is not an act..
its not gonna be easy..
but we'll make it through together..

i miss her..

Training went pretty smooth..
flu caught up with me yet again..
felt kinda breathless throughout..
race coming up real soon..
not fully ready yet..
then again no one can be fully ready..
i'll do my utmost best to be..

School starting tomorrow!
being cooped up at home..
for 2 month is no joke..
got sick of the holidays lyk 1 month ago..
i miss my classmates..
we always have fun together..

I feel this is gonna be a trying time for me..
will need to reschedule my time..
studies, training and you..
i'll work everything out..
i promise..

You're the sweetest thing..
that happened to me..

I'm happy with everything that has been going on..
sometimes i'd just wished you'd tell me more..
times where i feel so left out..
cause i have lyk no idea..
i wana know..
cause i care..

sharing caring learning understanding loving..
i believe thats the way to go..

Nothing changes cause..
i'm here to stay..

Been training hard for the past 3 days..
relishing the 1 day break which is tomorrow..
my body and mind needs a break..
a well-deserved one i guess..
gonna spend time with the gang..
looking forward to everything..
lay back and enjoy great company..
just like old times..

Sometimes i just wonder..

Intensive training has begun..
Muscles aching and hurting..
body needs to recover..
i'm tired..

I feel so alone suddenly..
lyk where's everyone..
felt lyk i've neglected many people..
haven't been talkin to them..
been busy with trainings..
somehow there's just no time to catch up..
things which i seem to understand..
no longer seemed understood..
hate the "i'm drifting away from you" kinda feeling..
where's everyone..
everyone who has stood by me since so long ago..
bah.. random emo-ness..

There is only one happiness in life..
to love and be loved..

i <3 you..

The haze is getting from bad to worse..
i'm lyk having difficulty breathing..
and a splitting headache..
intensive training starts tomorrow..
all the way to thursday..
last chance to boost our fitness..
before school reopens..

Disappointed..
a friend you always made sure..
he wasn't forgotten..
forgets you..

Oh wells..
I'm gonna see my baby tomorrow.. =)

You don't have to change a thing..
I love you just the way you are..

Trainings must go on..
cause the race will go on..
guess my body getting used to the haze..
less breathlessness..
and trainings gonna be intensive..
for lyk tuesday, wednesday and thursday..
so sorry to you ya..?
but you understand..
cause you're nice.. =)

I've been learning..
and this is where i put..
what i've learnt into action..
really happy with myself..
maybe its cause of you..
i feel very assured..

Nothing's gonna change my love for you..

6 days..

Few more driving lessons..
den i can book practical test date..
i've come a long way..
from stalling the car to making turns..
just wana drive you around..
wana drive everyone around..

time spent with you..
is time well spent..

appreciated.. =)

7 days..

Training getting more intensive..
did lyk 100 leg raise, squats and push ups..
after weights and gym training..
not to forget 10 sets of 5 chin ups after..
it hurts only for the instant you're doing it..
builds your mental strength too..
training's super satisfying..

i love your sincerity..
the way your words touch my heart..
knowing every word..
every sentence..
has been well thought of..
cause you really do care..

Time can fade memories..
time can remove pain..
time can don't wait for me..
but time can't stop me from loving you..

Gonna see my baby tomorrow.. =)

iljp..

Just hoping all these will blow over soon..
kinda expected with the number of friends you have..
but didn't know it would be this serious..
i love you and..
i love everything bout you..
no regrets..
your words bring sweet relief..
you're troubled and i shouldn't add on..
neither can i worry cause..
its beyond my control..
just doing the little things that..
i hope would make your day slightly better..
i'm just learning, understanding and loving..
knowing when i wake up tomorrow..
i'll be a better person for you..

Its just you and me..

I Believe In You by Joe feat N'Sync
I never believed in dreaming..
it never got me very far..
I never believed that love could find me..
like an arrow through the heart..
I never believed in miracles..
or building castles in the air..
Not until that day I found you..
turned around and you were there..
From the day you came, you gave me..
a whole new point of view..
I've been touched by an angel..
it's impossible, but true..

I believe in you..
I swear that forever from today..
no one will ever take your place..
I believe in you..
And I believe our love will last always.

I never believed in fairy tales..
though sometimes I wish I could..
I never believed that golden slippers..
could ever find the perfect foot..
I never believed in magic..
or that wishes could come true.
But your very kiss changed all this..
something only you could do..
You made me a believer..
you made me trust again..
You showed me there's a pot of gold..
at every rainbow's end..

I believe in you..
I swear that forever from today..
no one will ever take your place..
I believe in you..
And I believe our love will last always..

Only love, sets you free..
And if you serve to fate..
then you're my destiny..
Now I know, now I see..
Anything can happen..
if you just believe..

I believe in you..
I swear that forever from today..
no one will ever take your place..
I believe in you..
And I believe our love will last always.

Yet another haze-y day..
training was slack..
other den the crazed chin ups..
rowing was slack..
race coming up we can't afford to slack..
gonna hit the gym tomorrow!

Headed down to Tampines..
met up with her, Eileen and Minkay..
sat down at mac and just talk..
we should do this more often..
i'm very intrigued by the things we talked bout..
just very funny and all..

I love you..
Not only for what you are..
But for what I am..
When I am with you..

You're lyk the wonderfulest..
is there such word.. LOL..

I love you.. =)

The day was near perfect..
headed down to Dobby Ghaut..
in the late morning..
met up with her and the rest..
window shopped around plaza singapura..
waiting for the movie to begin..
caught You, Me and Dupree..
touching romantic comedy..
headed down to Heeren..
more window shopping..
had dinner..
took a long bus ride home..
happy nonetheless.. =)

Neglecting no one..
cause you guys stood by me..
when i was down..

A relationship just consist of 2 people..
Wad has they knowing..
Got to do with us wrking things out..
no understanding..

Its those little things that you do..
Your hands fit mine perfectly..

The haze is making me breathless..
didn't really slept well last night..
my chest felt tight..
felt that i'm not absorbing enough oxygen..
i fell asleep nevertheless..
duely paid for it during training..
from running to rowing..
just felt breathless..
i breathe shorter and faster..
my heart just beats faster..
pumping much needed oxygen..
i need my stamina back..

I've taken a huge step forward..
learning, understanding and loving..
just taking things a step at a time..
slowly but steadily..
things will turn out right..
everything will fall into place..
cause of you.. =)

I'm so glad i've found an angel..

Haze-y Kallang

Haze is just getting worse..
PSI just keeps rising..
having eye and throat irritation..
its lyk so hard to breathe kinda..
there's a tinge of burnt smell..
the air's so unfresh..

Training was very slack..
thanks to the haze..
hope it gets better tomorrow..

I got my answer..
and i can't help smiling..
We'll get through this.. =)

Life's beautiful..
Cause of you..

Mid Autumn Festival..
the sky's real clear..
the moon's ever beautiful..
and the haze looks better..

Headed over to Pasir Ris Park..
lighted some sparklers..
just basically hung out..
crapped our way lyk old times..
really enjoyed everyone's company..
we should do this more often..
but mayb at a more comfy place..

Find answers..
Don't ask questions..
Answers get you somewhere..
questions don't..

Why am i emo and all again..
i shouldn't be cause i'm contented..
there's nothing i should be unhappy about..
everything have been going on real fine..
i shouldn't be emo..
blame mood swings.. LOL..
realisation of this eased my shoulders..
not gonna go down again..
not this time..
i'll pull myself up..
it can only get better..
i feel light and jumpy again..
enlightenment!
I love my life right now!
off to training.. =)

You're a blessing..

Contentment is bliss..

Days spent thinking..
just having conversations..
with people that know..
and opinion matter..
time to process them..
and come to a conclusion..
but my heart already has..
it's my mind that hasn't..

i'm just scared to be hurt again..
i hate the feeling of uncertainty..
i don't wana feel lousy yet again..

The line's infront of me..
there's only so much i can do..
time to stop..
till i move on..

Just caught in between..
time will tell..
and god will give me a sign..
i hope..

I need space for myself i think..

I don't want another pretty face..
I don't want just anyone to hold..
I don't want love to go to waste..
I want you and your beautiful soul..

ps: if you're reading this
It's just me..
Thoughts just flow..
and i write them down..
i'm fine.. =)

Felt down and emo..
no idea why too..
just too many thoughts running..
worrying bout every single thing..
and when i worry i get pessimistic..
its just part of me, cant help it..
just sucks to be me..
spoke to Jeremy bout it..
cause he was part of my worries..
just poured out everything on my mind..
his answers came..
not that they didn't make sense..
but all's fair in love and war..
you don't have to do what you're doing..
shucks i'm still so affected by what i did..

Don't wana go down again..
just as i'm on the ascendency..

I'm not as good as you think i am..

God give me a sign..

Happy Children's Day!
to all kids!
and kids at heart!
me included! =)

Rowing was tough today..
did so many sets of speed rowing..
just did sets after sets of 1 minutes bursting..
can remember exactly how many..
frequency of row was fast paced..
just know that i was constantly gasping for air..
actually i kinda lyk the feeling..
to know that you're on your limit..
there's no way you can push harder..
you just try and hang on to that limit..
enduring the all the pain and numbness..
just waiting for the signal to stop..
you gasp you feel tired..
you know its worth it..

Motivation is the path to success..
and it has a rub on effect on others..

this is so gonna be a long week..
i've been thinking too much lately..
i'm scared..